I feel ridiculed

--I feel ridiculed--

In sch now.. damn.. its supposed to be my break.. well.. feeling highly irritable.. feel like i could just snap at anyone if i hear a wrong word from anyone's mouth.. volatile.. and its all because of one person.. *thanks*.. for making me feel so ridiculous about myself.. but then again, it also helped me appreciate Marcus more than anything suddenly.. basically it just boils down to keeping ur promises and saying wat u mean.. not telling me things tat will never be done.. once or twice, it maybe forgiven .. but its too many a times tat u have done this.. i have onli one word for u - hypocrite. So please just stop watever u r doing to me before any further damage is done and before i start hating you.

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Watched Constantine.. at the expense of dancitude

wOke up early in the mOrning just to go schoOl to drop some stuff for the club.. a real minor thingy. Oh and also to pass NicOLe and er... classmate their Dancitude tickets. (just to create less prOblems should I be unable to tear myself away from mY belOved band friends.. )

Went to Kiat's hOuse at nOon.. he almost forgot abt our outing till i called him up.. i sort of anticipated that he will either mix up the day or drop the whole thing from his mind.. kinda incredible to me.. hahaha.. and so Wilson, Evelyn and Irene and I made our way to Kiat's house.. and guess wat.. we were at the lift lobby waiting for the lift.. sort of overheard the two aunties (also waiting for the lift) talking bout some shit thingy.. we were all wondering y they were talking bout shit there and then.. and our dear Ivy was mimicking them.. talking bout the shit thingy of which the idea seemed pretty ridiculous to us.. haha.. the two aunties entered the elevator on the right while we wait for another one.. hahha.. as we entered.. we spotted a peculiar brown mass on the elevator floor.. hahahah!.. BingO! we made a mad dash out immediately.. overwhelmed with much ridicule and disgust we patiently wait for the next one.. this time we were lucky to not see tat brown mass.. a lesser degree at least.. apparently the culprit tried to wipe the shit tats on his hands or where ever all over the elevator wall... enuff shit for a whole week.... *disgusted*

Watched Constantine tOday.. woOhoO.. gd shOw.. wonder y NicOle gave it such lOw ratings.. I would have give it an 8 out of 10.. and Keanu Reeves is sO irresistably chArming.. *yummyz*..cOol show..

NicOle .. so happy for u tat u r making progress with Douglas.. *smilez*... heard u made GREAT progress at the Dancitude.. hahah.. i have an informant.. hahaa.. at least u get to see him almost everyday.. loOking at my own situation these few days.. things look pretty grim.. bleak.. hOpeless... i hOpe over the weEk things get better.. i can only hOpe... tats all for now...

Not the slightest tinge of guilt i feel

=skipped sch.. slacking at home=
Slept till 12:30pm today.. my couch was really too comfortable.. Missed computing lec and chem tut +lec. just like every other week. Haven been to one single chemistry tut.. NicOle has been signing my attendance.. [thanks nic]..i am becoming wat she calls.. A delinquent.. I guess tats true.. My tutorials have piled up so high and yet i haven felt the slightest tinge of guilt or panic..

Sing-my-heart-out

NicOle called me on my mObile shortly after I left sch at ard 7:30pm.. I was on the bus.. there was such excitement in her voice.. she walked back to her hall with Douglas after class... and as they were reaching their destination.. Douglas exclaimed..”hOw? hOw?”... and turned to ask NicOle..”Have u ever been in a relationship?”.. shortly after NicOle say “Yeah”.. he shot back.. “dun seem so”.... (sOrRie NicOle I wrote tHe entire transcript here...) but nonetheless that few seconds had NicOle’s head spinning like mad.. I was thinking Douglas has finally cracked his shell and is showing his true “emotions”?.. hahha.. I certainly hOpe this is true.. coz mY dear NicOle has suffered so long the symptoms of unrequited love.. hmmz... praying for her...

A not-so-typical typical school day

Physics Lecture (I am feeling highly irritable)
Had a shock first thing in the morning. Went for Computing Tutorial and just as I sat down .. my classmate presented me with a bouquet... Erm... Yah... Was in a shock... Not exactly a gd thing. I guess it was only right to accept it graciously and politely.. eerm...no strings attached.. But it was flattering though.. nicOle didn't manage to get one.. (but realized she got a FF bear later that day from the same classmate.. wonder y she is so er.. excited abt it..).. Actually I wouldn't mind handing her the bouquet.. friends should share everything.. haha...

OMG.... He wrote a little tiny note to my dear friend NicOle.. asking her why I haven asked y he gave me tat bouquet.. At this instance I wished I hadn't had ears.. nicOle shared my sentiments..I wish he doesn't speak for the rest of the day.. Haha.. Feeling freakish... At this moment all i can think of is Helmut.. And the immense grief tat I was not able to share his problems last night.. And tat he will not get to try the truffles I made [for him].. A series of unfortunate events..

Here I am once again

~Here i am once again, I'm torn up into pieces, can't deny it can't pretend~
Made cookies for my beloved friends - spent the whole afternoon doing it. Meeting Vicky for a karaoke session. Sing my lungs out. It's ironic that after my energy for Marcus has worn off, he came back, initiating our online chat. It's like things are really happening at all the wrong timing! Life is complicated isn't it? At least I think mine is. Or just that my low brain capacity can't handle such complex equations.

I feel maggots eating my heart out

I'm writing this during computing tutorial. I should be listening but I think maggots have gotten to my ears as well. What have i done to deserve such an unglam rotting-away? Do people have no respect for "life" ? Give me a proper burial at least instead of letting me rot away exposed to the elements. So that my soul shall never rest .Why does the maggots not take my brain first. This way my death would be painless.

Taming the Dragons

Sitting on the train on my way to town, with dear NicOle snoring away beside me . She nvr fails to "touch" me. Even when asleep, I could feel her index finger on my arms. Okay finally she removed it. Haha. Lame crap. (NicOle seems happily asleep. I think my sleeping-beauty throne is about to be usurped. ) Heck. It wont be that easy. Muahahaha .Getting bored. After so long on the train we have only reached Buona Vista .Sucks. Have the MEC mega BBQ later . Not much purpose in going. Only to take photographs.
This train ride is taking "bleeddy" long. Only reached Redhill . NicOle is still asleep .
Perhaps she is trying to stop LS from coming out. Getting our lawn (eyebrow FYI.. not anywhere else) mowed later.it's been a long time since I faced that kind of pain. Probably tear later. NicOle still sleeping. Wonder if her head will stop moving a not. Haha! At least she isn't drooling. thinking of baking cookies for my friends. Think he will be so super shocked that I can actually bake. But whatever.
We are finally at the place we are getting our lawns mowed.
its called "Rathi beauty Parlour & Boutique "..
Pain. Tears. NicOle screaming .
Haha No, i'm just kidding.