Low Batt

Yeee... the weather has been so good these days I really feel like lying in bed all day long. But the stinking reality is: I CAN'T.

I have been feeling really really lethargic these days. Can't get out of bed and I can't pay attention in lectures. Weekends are always gone in a jiffy before I can get enough rest, they are always wasted. Argh. The only good news is the one week break that's coming and I can recharge myself, hopefully.

Spent almost the whole day bumming ard at Jurong point on Monday. Coz it was NTU's 50th anniversary celebration, the classes were cut at 1230. Went for a OG lunch. Sadly, not many people turned up. Went to KFC for lunch, then to Mcdonalds, then to Coffee Bean. We ran out of places to go. =( Really sick of JP now... yeeee...

Jewel me and Wen finally met up against all odds. Everyone seemed really busy with this and that and we managed to fix a really last minute meeting (after 5 hrs in JP... >.<). Went to this "Galilee friends" at cineleisure. According to Jewel they offer free flow of soup and had no service charge. Food was pretty okay I think. Not a bad place to eat at. Then after that we went to NYDC just across the road for dessert, and we chatted till pretty late. keke. Yeah after such a long time, we really had loads to share.

Went to town with Wen today again. She had to get present for her friend Xiu Bing, but end up shopping for herself. Haha. Ate at Coffee Club at Taka. Pasta and mudpie. Fatty stuff. Again.. But the pasta there was good.

Die ah.. must go run liao(rite~).. such a lifestyle is unhealthy. Sides, I am already over-nourished. Haha. Looking forward to the one week break!

--- buried under tonnes of tutorials...

Step by step

Wow.. another weekend expended, and I have yet to complete anything! But I am happy at the fact that I have grown out of being lazy and unmotivated .. at least 60% of it.. hahaha..

I ought to finish off the little bit about the Sakae Skirmish on Union day... *sinister laugh*



The picture is a little blur... but the 7 of us took down approximately 70 plates.. not including the ice cream.. some miso soup.. blah blah... monsters we are, indeed.

Am I bitting off more than I can chew? I dunno. Hmmz. But I'm heading towards my goal.. step by step.

I wanna be an independent woman!.. nah.. thats just an excuse for not having anyone come after me.. keke.. but seriously.. my friends are all busy getting themselves attached.. and some.. with such ease.. sometimes I wonder if they had taken some miracle pill or something.. but single is good too .. you see... no commitments.. responsibilities.. worries.. keke.. and lots of freedom..


Side line: "The supposed masterpiece is out... and it stinks ass... nuff' said."

NoteBook?

The debate is on... should I get a notebook?... stock check: 1 compaq presario sr1050ap desktop sitting on my computer desk... bro just got a new note book.. hmmz... should i get my own?

I have a little evil plan in my head.. since my elder bro's own lappy is coming.. and (if i get my own).... I am contemplating to sell the desktop... so my little bro got no computer to play any more (online) games!!! and no more hogging!!! (he is so hooked) wow.. great idea.. a very sinister one too.... Muahahahah~~!!

The Weather Is So Chilly

I'm back after a totally uneventful week. I'm slacking off school work because it got too damn boring. Top on the list of subjects is Thermodynamics. I do not comprehend at all. Argh. And I simply don't feel like being near it. But I guess second year subjects were much better than first. Material Structure and Mechanical Behaviour, Applied Chemistry, Characterization of Materials are interesting. Plus, this year the Maths lecturer is really good. First year sucks. Bleh....

Went for the Jazz and Blues first practice. I wonder why we are always the "problem children".. I mean me.. "problem kid". Apparently me and Winnie missed the audition day and Saturday was the first day we are there. Firstly, I felt so out. Coz I didn't belong to any section. They didn't have a clarinet for me and they wanted me to play the sax. Bleh. I didn't want to. Then I wanted to see if they have any more space in the vocals team. The person-in-charge Rudy promised to audition me. But I waited and waited (coz he seemed really busy). Partly my own fault lah.. I didn't tell them properly that I want to try the vocals thingy before I came down. So I approached the lady who seemed like the in-charge of the vocals team. I told her I wanted to audition for vocal .. then her face simply twisted like a piece of crumpled paper. Stressed out. Hur. Hur. I gave her the nickname Queen Bee 'cause she seemed like it. The type you got to suck up to her, and not challenge her in anyway.. and at all times, let her be the only one in-charge. keke.

So I sort of waited and waited again.. for the busy man Rudy to give Queen Bee some sort of decision where I should go. (Bleeddy just gimme an audition then decide from there!) Finally the vocals team decide to move to another room.. I was asked to follow. I guess I am to be auditioned finally. Adrenaline rush. I didn't prepare any song cause I didn't know. Me stoopid. who goes to an audition without a song?? Less to say prepare a jazz song. Argh.. I can't sing anything. Except the song Amazing Grace kept cramming up my brain space I can't think of any other songs! So I sang the song. The keyboardist who played as I was singing was so "qiang".. I was wow-ed away. Hmm.. then I was asked to try to sing a jazz song. Die die also must sing. keke. So I tried lah. But it sucked. Queen Bee says she has to go discuss with busy man Rudy and she will get back to me whether I can stay in the vocal team.

Waited and waited. Damn. My impatience whispered to me to not join the Jazz and Blues. But I shut it up. I didn't want to wake up early and sing to someone for nothing. Its a challenge really to open my mouth to sing to someone. Some of you should know this very well. keke. And I didn't want to join the vocals team to perform. I only want to learn to sing properly 'cause I overheard Queen Bee saying that there's going to be this singing coach from Hollywood coming down to coach the vocals team. Wow~

Queen Bee came back with busyman Rudy after a long while. This time the AVA team ( I dunno what they are supposed to be called now.. but they were know to me as the AVA people in my sec sch days) was packing up and making a lot of noise moving their barang barang into the same room we were in then. Rudy asked me to sing for him. Damn I sang for nothing to Queen Bee. Now I got to sing again. ( But I think second time I sound better 'cause I sort of warmed up after the first time. )Had to fight with the noise the AVA team was making. But thankfully and unfortunately they stopped and listen as I sang. Nerve-wrecking.

I was able to stay with the vocals team at the end. It was all worth it... and I thank God for it. Keke. I am happy just to be with the team. Phew. But there was a Native American lady in the team. Her name is Bulelua and I think she has style. Cool.. interesting people. Keke. Hope I get to learn stuffs man..

I guess that was the most eventful day of the entire week. And it lasted only roughly two hours. The rest of my week passed in a blur.. watching Southpark.. trying to "re-cock-ca-nize" my lecture notes.. and hopefully attempt some tutorial questions. keke. But it isn't a very hopeful situation. I'm in this drowsy mode.. think its because of the weather. Oh.. Friday was Union Day. Great! Slack day. Me and Winnie and Jacelyn planned to go to Somerset to trim our brows. Too bad Jacelyn couldn't make it cause she has earlier engagements with her mom to go do dunno wat. A big group of us (Me Winnie Jun qin Jean Big Willy Feng Cheng Jia quan.. Say wee and Shiming joined later) went to Sakae at Heeren. It was crazy. We took down a total of 60 over plates of food. Shall show you guys the picture later. And something strange happened.. 8 people went in and we only paid for 6. Keke. I can't believe I actually mastermind-ed this. *slaps self*

Okay I guess that sums up the most part of my week. I still got so much to do! Stressed sia... phew.. God Bless all.... =)

Cursed

My mood just hit a rock-bottom low. Was desperately trying to read some notes and do some tutorials but I just couldn't. My mind is somewhere else. My morale, shattered.

I am such a chicken I finally comprehend, a word I refused to get acquainted with be it the fact I was lying to myself the whole time. Chicken-hearted. I dared not do anything that will help myself, I simply refused to. Because I was scared. I dunno what I was so afraid. I prayed and I prayed, only to comfort myself. Maybe God finally answered my prayer last night. I got to see him today, only in a situation I feared most.

There are two interpretation of what I have seen: give it up or do something about it. I would love to choose the latter, but what? I have been troubled by this QUESTION for so long. At the same time, I was in this big time denial. I dunno what the hell my brain is for! Only getting me into nothing but silly, hopeless, you-deserved-it, why-didn't-I-do-something-before-this situations. Damn it. Sometimes I really hate myself.

After all these while I found I have nothing. NOTHING. I wasted so much time doing nothing, and at the same time hoping for some miracle to happen. But it won't, not if I don't fight for it myself. And I am certainly not prepping myself at all for a fight. Coz I refused to! I am so angry at myself.

Friends, if you may, don't be nice to me anymore. I don't need the niceness and kind words that you all have been sheltering me with. Scold the f$&#%!* hell out of me. I need a kick in the butt, a punch in the face, a stab in the heart. Help me wake myself up!

X-men

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Blog URL

Anyone can tell me how to change the url once and for all, not some redirection.. I want it to be something else. Like how Lee was able to use http://lee.cue.to for her url!! No .blogspot no more~!

Sweat

Argh. Weather has been pretty bad these days. The temperature is so high that I am hiding myself in nam nam library in between lessons everyday. So do find me there if u happen to drop by. Hur hur.

Been up to nothing lately. Just going through the routine of rushing here and there. Just busted 25 bucks on three taxi rides. Ouch!

Haven't touch the computer for freaking whole 7 days! A new record for myself. Nothing to look forward to online anywayz. So why waste my time when no matter how long I wait, it just isn't happening? And plus I'm so tired these days. School is sucking da life outta me and its only like the third week~!

Entertaining myself with Southpark these days. I wonder why the next Naruto episode isn't out yet... or is it? I'm waiting for 146.

I was with Winnie at Jurong Point the other day. Had lunch at Bento Box (pretty affordable and the food is pretty okay). Then we walked past this tee shirt printing shop. Something caught my eye. It goes like this: " If I want to hear from an asshole, I 'd have farted." And I know exactly who to use it on. (Shhhh!) Haha.

Side track: I almost lost my entire blog thanks to my itchy fingers. I count myself lucky for being able to revive it. Phew~

我想去流浪

我想去流浪.

Too much work too little fun. I always wanted to go travel. I am sick of monotony. But the only way I can get out of here is to slog my life and hopefully be able to earn the money for me to go do some travelling. Vicious cycle. Boo.

Studying: My newfound hObby

Yah rite.

I seem out of sorts. This isn't the usual slacker me. But the word [[study]] kept popping up in my head. Seems like everyone is in this rat-race to finish the most tutorials, read the most notes, and try to get ahead of each other no matter wat.

I feel I've been dragged into this dreadful race, and in the past I would simply drop out of it and be the slacker I've been for so many years.

Competing with anybody is a definite no-no because its just so infantile. You only do that in your Primary School.. Just do what you deem is your own best. ( So friends, don't go killing urselves over someone else's results)

Let's just hope in this race, no one gets hurt physically nor mentally..

(off to tutorials and notes reading.. and finally... zZz!!)

Mood: Exhilarated!!.. duM deE dEe dUm!!