The Day Me and My Cat Fell

At the veterinarian waiting for the vet to come back from lunch.
In a basket, immobile. Poor Bishop.

My cat fell, literally, from nine storeys down. It was a miracle it survived without any internal injuries. Just a broken pelvis. It was a miracle. But I am heartbroken nonetheless. I scoured through my entire block the moment I found Bishop not in the house. From 12 storeys to the first I searched. It was only until I heard him call out when I was on the ground floor I realised he was nearby. The worry that I may never find him again was lifted. I searched around on the ground floor and found nothing. My cousin came along to join in the search. I then went up to the second level and there it was, on the roof of the porch, crying out in pain. I had no idea how it landed there, I didn't dare think it jumped from my balcony. I carried it back to my house to realise that it couldn't walk nor stand up. This was much worse. My cousin had to rush Bishop to a veterinarian. I was really afraid I would lose him.

I fell. This affected me a lot. Plus, all the things that I'm supposed to be doing keeps piling up. Being reprimanded for something I had no idea how to do but tried to do. Thank you. Its enough for me. For all these things to strike me at one go. I guess things happen at the wrong time wrong place. I should have never taken the FC position. Let's just say I have committment issues. I am stretched really thin. I'm sorry I had not taken good control of the situation. I am sorry I disappointed people. I'm heading for disaster. I should tender my resignation for the FOC long ago. I knew I had no time. Things have turned out this way, I've got nothing to explain. I don't know what to change in the budget except vague instructions such as, "reconsider the log pnp and welfare budget, the total expenditure is too high/ low." (heck). My bad I didn't double check the quantities. The minutes said much, not. Meetings were held on days I had tuition and I was unable to go. It was not as though I did not request for certain portfolios to update on quotations. I heard of nothing afterwhich. People aren't helping when they do not confirm the information I need to report to some other party. Everyone tells me they are busy. So is it my fault that I'm busy too?

I am in a bad shape mentally. Working with friends in something is a tricky situation. The same goes for the previous episode on project work.

I am without brains because I threw it away.

Projects Bring Out the Worst in People

Singaporeans are selfish. Face it. We are selfish like it or not. In a way, I am disappointed I have to come to this conclusion.

I have issues regarding Project Work in school. The school encourages project work to let us learn from each other, to be able to work with others and share the task at hand. To begin with, university students are a whole bunch of selfish people. Try putting all these selfish people together, you simply get a big group of selfish people who hardly gets much done. Make a module worth 2 aus with projects and presentations, seriously, its really hard to bother yourself. I admit, I didn't care enough for things to work out smoothly, neither do I have that luxury of time. Its a common excuse. Who really has time anyway?

I admit I couldn't care less for a module that's worth 2 academic units. Who cares if you get an A? It won't matter much if you don't anyway. I just don't get it. As much as I try to keep the group together, people want to walk out on it. It is out of my control to make people come for meetings and stay long enough to finish the task. I know there are people who think they have what it takes to do things on their own. I would jolly say, "Yes, by all means." For the sake of the tutor and other group members, and for the fact that this is a project, I have to spend time to pacify many parties. At the same time, compromise my position.

Some people care too much while some simply refuse to. Why prolong our agony? Get the damn project done and thats it!

I'd love to say just F**** the whole damn project. But religion and responsibilty forbids me to do so. Like I've said, a project isn't worth killing yourself and your groupmates. This was the first time I got mad at someone because of a project. It's stupid, to put it bluntly. Such things only happen in primary schools. This, we will realise when this semester is over. Yes, perhaps you will get an A for this module, you'll find that you lost good relationships with people. Losing friends is definitely not worth it especially when you find that you don't have much to begin with. So not everyone would feel that friends are important. Especially university friends, superficial, I would call most of the friendships forged in university. My point is if you can't maintain good relationship with the people around you even in university, you will have a whole lot to suffer when you go out working, which I believe is going to be much worse.

You may call me superficial. No matter if the project is done to perfection or not, I'd want to keep people happy with one another. At the end of the day, project is short term. Relationships with people goes a far longer way.

This entry has not been engineered to target any individual in particular. Parties involved serves only as part of the experience I have had in the above mentioned Project. I am not afraid to anger people. However, this is just not my purpose at this point in time.

Blogging seems to be getting boring

Yeah. Its really boring when you find that you got nothing to talk about. Reminds me that I'm leading a really boring life. Every entry equals one reminder. When is this going to change??

30 odd days till exams. I'm a mood spoiler here I know. But whatever. I'm boring with nothing better to say anyway. So guys.. hope you all study hard for exams!.. I don't think I need to remind anyone but myself. I'm so leading a sad life..

My Favorite Box has My Favourite things No More!!

No more Discovery Channel for me. No more Animal Planet. No more National Geographic. No more Discovery Travelling and Living. I am going to become dumber!

In place of my favourite channels, my brother subscribed the sports channels (&#$%#@&!!!). Think he got Hallmark and stars movie too. Bleh~

I really hate soccer because of my brother. However great the sport may be, I hate it! Thanks to my brother.

Today I finished the foc budget. Thank goodness. One more thing off my overdue list.

I'm in a really pissed mood today. Plus, someone really wanted to get on my nerves. Sometimes, you just got to know when to back off. Some people just don't. I decided not to care. Why kill my brain cells over something so unimportant?

Hey people. I don't know if you have noticed, I have another blog too. Sideasideb... spare it a few minutes k? Thanks.. its hopelessly neglected.

Blogging

It seems like blogging has become a chore for me. I only blog when people bug me to. Seriously, this semester has made me feel like a lost sheep in desert. At least if I'm a camel, I have water in my humps. A sheep? I'm as good as dead.

40 days and counting.. exams are coming. I wish to get this semester over and done with and go for my IA in my 3rd year 1st sem. I dunno if its a dumb plan, I just want to get away from studying for a long period of time! 3 months of holidays is waiting for me. Plus, if I go for my IA, I will get away from studying for almost 9 months! Seems like a good plan to me...

The FOC is nearing and I haven't really done much as the finance controller. Seriously I wish someone will take my place. I hate responsibilities! I guess I'm asking the obvious.. who would want a job as shitty as this? I am too dumb to turn down this position. Should have just volunteered to be a senior attach.. slack and enjoy.. Stupid me.. downright stupid.